Some days I feel lost. Some days I want nothing more than to sink my feet into the ground, curl up my toes and refuse to move again. Yes, even us Traveling Mamas sometimes feel the need to be settled.
And sometimes we feel that need will swallow us whole. It smacks us in the face… all those things we miss while we are away exploring infinity and beyond… birthday parties, holidays, and even just the normal stuff like soccer teams and dance recitals.
And in that moment I begin to wonder… what if? What if we stood still and didn’t go back? What if we just laid down and rested a little while longer?
In spite of the big lump crawling up my throat… I know the truth. I know that I wouldn’t be happy… and neither would he. Because the truth is that we do miss out on a lot and that is so very, very hard to swallow, but in exchange we get the gift of this wild and crazy life we are living. The world is there… waiting to be explored and the fascination with seeing it all with my own eyes has yet to subside.
I sit back and let that reality sink in. Traveling, seeing the world, and living abroad not only thrills us, but it makes us happy too. I think of all the places we have been- everywhere from the beaches of the Caribbean to the Great Wall of China to safaris in the Africa wild to the Pyrnanees Mountains and sheep dotted fields of Romania… And I know all over again that this is the life we were meant to live.
I know it is not for everyone and oftentimes people walk away shaking their heads in disbelief that we do this with three children. But I kinda like the idea of this Traveling Tribe seeing what comes next for us.
Just like every other mom- I am fearful too. I worry that they will get hurt. I worry that they won’t fit in. I worry that they won’t learn the language and I worry that they will hate me the rest of their lives for taking them away again… But I have faith. I believe in God and I believe that He has a plan for our lives and that He is watching out for us.
And mostly, I believe that they want to be a part of it. They are excited beyond words. They know that it won’t be easy and they know the first few months will push us all beyond our comfort zones… but they still want to come along for the ride.
And I really cannot ask for much more!